I’ve been getting moody lately. I need to get out of the dorm building. Staying in one place for too long always gets to me. I’ve also been thinking about my mom more lately. It’ll be ten years in March. I couldn’t sleep one night cause I was thinking about her and my brother.
This post is going to be everywhere. Somehow during my thoughts today I realized that I’m scared of the idea of love. I’ve always feared being alone, but I’m also scared of love. I’m gonna have to get over at least one of them. What sucks is that I’m getting lonely again, haha. I can be happy without a guy in my life. I know that. I’ve done it for so long before I ever first fell in love. But, I have my moments where i miss that feeling.
I think of how strong my mom was and I wish I was that strong. Sigh…this was supposed to be longer, but I can’t focus. I need to get out of this building and go somewhere, anywhere.